With my trip being exactly one month away, you would think that I'd have a grand sense of anticipation, excitement, or worry. You would also be wrong. I've been doing my research on South Africa apartheid, I've been calculating trip costs, and I've been explaining my hopes and plans to just about everyone. Fortunately, I am no longer anxious. Unfortunately, it's been difficult to feel anything.
The view from where I stand looks a lot like this. My small, plunky engine putters towards the infinity of God resting on the horizon. My cheeks are happily flushed from the cold, but my nose is numb and runny. Steering is easy. Waiting is not. Mostly, there is silence.
As I hesitantly float on and on, I will continue to hope in Paul's promise that "God will meet all your needs according to the glorious riches in Christ Jesus," and I will try my best to give of myself for His glory.
Pray for:
-People in the congregation to step up and serve the college students this fall.
-A deeper comprehension of my value in Christ. Colossians 2:9-10.
Your image of yourself upon the ship is a very realistic one. The different phases of emotion we go through in a given moment develop our character to one degree or another.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what you feel, you have genuine hope and genuine faith. Those are the things that will truly reward you :)
Thanks for the encouragement, Ian!
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